I have always been strong willed and opinionated. No one would contradict that, but I also was a yes man. Rarely would I say no to anyone, unless it was impossible. I’d help anyway and anytime I could to the point people took advantage.
I always thought, no big deal. I have myself to see in the mirror, and I want to be proud of my reflection! I’m not saying I’m perfect, but I always try to be good, helpful, and kind.
Oddly enough, cancer changed that. I needed to be selfish and take care of myself. Other cancer patients would stop me from helping someone, and urge me to focus on getting well. So, I let other people step up, and gave myself a break. Boy what a mixed range of reactions, WOW!
For the people who figured it out without me, my deepest gratitude! Some used it as an opportunity both good and bad which from fresh eyes was fascinating. No matter, one thing is for certain, I am no longer the same ever giving gal for I haven’t the strength. My heart is wanting, but the body isn’t willing. Some people simply ask too much, and I can’t do it. Unfortunately, not all can handle the new me, but I don’t have the strength to care!
