What do you know?

I have readers all of a sudden.  Thank you for taking the time out of your quarantine to stop by, and in such numbers!  WOW!  Perhaps I am interesting.  I prayed long and hard after the tears stopped streaming, calmed my blood pressure, and realized I’m making the one mistake I have spent my life trying to avoid!  I did not accept the things I cannot change.  That flew right out the window!  The strong, independent, and intelligent woman that is my normal facade cracked and fell to pieces over the inevitable disaster.

We face a much larger disaster in this country right now, and I should be strong to all 5 of you that normally read my blog.  I should keep the ghosts in the closet, stand up for my Mother by keeping my mouth shut.  She will do what he wants anyway.  I have no power to change them or change the past.  I should be focusing all my efforts on keeping people’s spirit lifted, helping in anyway I can, and not causing chaos in the 3 families.

Therefore, I will take deep breaths, pray for forgiveness for my vulgarity, apologize to my Dad who is a generous man, friend, and I do love him.  They are both culpable, Mom is an adult after all.  I cannot regret how I feel.  I cannot make the fear for Mom’s health go away.  I think about it everyday as I’m sure it was extremely painful for her not to be able to be with me through cancer.

Now, I will focus my efforts on this coronavirus and make sure that the Boise family I’ve made have everything they need and offer help where I can to my family afar.

I pray for the health of you and your family!  Remain strong and vigilant!  #alonetogether we can beat this!  Stay the F@ck HOME!