I have readers all of a sudden. Thank you for taking the time out of your quarantine to stop by, and in such numbers! WOW! Perhaps I am interesting. I prayed long and hard after the tears stopped streaming, calmed my blood pressure, and realized I’m making the one mistake I have spent my life trying to avoid! I did not accept the things I cannot change. That flew right out the window! The strong, independent, and intelligent woman that is my normal facade cracked and fell to pieces over the inevitable disaster.
We face a much larger disaster in this country right now, and I should be strong to all 5 of you that normally read my blog. I should keep the ghosts in the closet, stand up for my Mother by keeping my mouth shut. She will do what he wants anyway. I have no power to change them or change the past. I should be focusing all my efforts on keeping people’s spirit lifted, helping in anyway I can, and not causing chaos in the 3 families.
Therefore, I will take deep breaths, pray for forgiveness for my vulgarity, apologize to my Dad who is a generous man, friend, and I do love him. They are both culpable, Mom is an adult after all. I cannot regret how I feel. I cannot make the fear for Mom’s health go away. I think about it everyday as I’m sure it was extremely painful for her not to be able to be with me through cancer.
Now, I will focus my efforts on this coronavirus and make sure that the Boise family I’ve made have everything they need and offer help where I can to my family afar.
I pray for the health of you and your family! Remain strong and vigilant! #alonetogether we can beat this! Stay the F@ck HOME!