Only the dead have seen the end of war…

Thank you Plato for ringing in the new century with poignant philosophy.   I’m sad bringing in the New Year.  The world is in great peril, the economy in position to freefall, and people again divided to the point of violence and hate continues to grow.  Billionaires are buying the political system leaving only a handful of equals on the board..  Those players aren’t competitors but dominator equals.  Until the war comes.

Trump wasn’t just a President,  but a bucking/overthrow of the system.  Republicans that value small government saw the overreach of Democrat lead government and destruction of free market with Obama care.  The insurance companies crashed and the people were left without good Healthcare.

Years prior I voted for Ross Perot.  I know in my heart that a man who works for his success is far better to lead than a servant scraping up scraps to the tune of MILLIONS!

I’ve watched the Democrats switch from “for the people” (Kennedy) to “fuck the people” (Clinton).

I know D.C. and am fully aware that Trump’s ability to accomplish MONUMENTAL things in just a few years DESTOYED BOTH parties. If not, why not? Obama is so Fabulous because he did 1 thing for the people? Make sure people who couldn’t afford the government plan get FINED for it? SMH

Enjoy the new world order!


Nothing surprises me anymore…
Passing along:

Nashville, Tennessee Bombing: AT&T got a contract to do forensic audit on Dominion voting machines and those machines were being moved to Nashville this past week.
The former owner of the AT&T building in Nashville, William Kennard, is a board member for Cerberus Capital Management and AT&T…. He also was Bill Clinton’s FCC chair, and Obama’s Ambassador to the EU.
Dominion voting is owned by Cerberus Capital Management…. Cerberus is run by Staple Street Execs. Joe Bidens Brother in Law, Steven Owens, is the cofounder of Staple Street Execs along with William Kennard (mentioned above).
Super Computer in TN was connected to the AT&T internet in Nashville and Thursday evening, the Cumberland river cooling system was compromised due to internet outage and the supercomputer fried…..
If you don’t know, “Kraken” is a reference to a supercomputer former prosecuter, Sidney Powell, was talking about.

So, the explosion “just happened” to be at the AT&T location where they control the cooling system for the super computer and house the dominion voting machines and drives for forensic audit…
Does it make sense now why no lives were lost? Does it make sense now why the FBI task lead couldn’t even put together a coherent sentence in the press conference yesterday? Does it make sense why the mayor was making light of the situation, almost laughing yesterday?

I watched..

I was told not to tell, but that is not community to me. Living in our triumphs, lives and eventually death is PARAMOUNT!! The legacy we leave behind is especially important because it shows young people that actions are appreciated! They matter!

Jim Rhodes was a contractor for the State of Idaho and built the water system in Boise. Why won’t people celebrate this wonderful man? I did! I had him walk me down the isle. I tried to be there every holiday. I honestly hope Mom and Dad know that I love them. They deserve love from everyone because that is what they gave!

My cup runneth over..

Rest in peace Dad. I think you lead an amazing life and will miss you! Thank you Dad!

Father-in-law walking me down the aisle

Sorry readers…

I love you, and sorry for the last post. It wasn’t ready and I meant to save as a draft.

Before covid, 80 percent of all pharmaceutical sales were mood stabilizers. I wonder what it is now? People are losing their companies, unable to keep the roof over their head, can’t pay bills, and committing suicide because a virus that kills .01 percent of it’s victims has destroyed over 10 percent of people’s lives. I wonder how many people are on mood stabilizers now? My Doctor has tried to throw them at me. No thanks!

It’s ok to have feelings! We live in depressing times. Our country is falling apart, the divide is deepening, hope is fading, and let me assure you I know what it’s like to lose people this year. We are being trained how to feel, told not to feel, and given medicine to numb us into submission. Fear is fed to us in the form of statistics, numbers EVERY day!!!

2 people in this photo died 2020

There’s anger, pain, and suffering while the government stalls on giving assistance yet shutting down small business. MEANWHILE superstores are packed! They handed us $1200 of our OWN money and expected us to be ok for 9 months! Bill collectors are banging on doors as big brother closes us down AGAIN!!!

Remembering better times

Last night protesters went to the homes of the board members to protest the new shutdown orders. It made national news! The uprising has begun. The safe space you needed when Hilary wasn’t elected was given to you on a silver platter by covid. CLEARLY you didn’t like that either. Wanted to be a stay at home Mom so bad? You got it! Nope, didn’t like that either.

Start questioning WHY you have anxiety and look for solutions! Can’t open your business? Get a group together and protest! Write your elected officials! Stop reacting and ACT! Get your ass off the couch, CANCEL Netflix, throw your pills away, and STOP being lazy about your life!



Yes my dear friends there’s no way to be something you’re not! You can play a part but living a lie only lasts so long unless you’re a sociopath. Sociopath GO AWAY!! Thank you.

Normal people welcome back. You can’t have a person who knows and loves you like a movie, (Pretty Woman). it happens all the time in Hollywood because they spend half of the time acting/ believing they are in love with someone else. I don’t understand why anyone thinks what the see on film is real.

I’ve seen living relationships that were so beautiful I cried and was lucky to see it’s light.

When you see it, really see it, you don’t covet. All I could think about is it’s beauty. Unfortunately I am in the minority.

So I say…STOP HATE! Only YOU can chose the path of peace!


The age old question in my world, every year was, “What do you want for Christmas?” For me, after preteen years, has been money. Help pay a bill, buy books, and get me through a crisis. I rarely found a better answer. Money’s good..I’ll put it where it needs to go.

The last 3 years when someone asks i feel tongue tied. This morning I looked at a beautiful new rifle. It is INCREDIBLE but the money could be used more productively. Hours later, after trying to reinforce my point I had to visually drive the point home.

My health is again in jeopardy and I need financial resources to fix it.

My best friend wants me to fly to Florida for her birthday in February, again I can’t and I end up feeling like I let her down. Then I feel like this present machine of America is churning the wrong direction.

Do I want to go to the beach in the middle of winter? DUH!

Do I want to spend time with Mom? DUH!

Do I want to see my Brother again? See him happy? DUH

Do I want to see Brandi in Birmingham? DUH

I would love to spend my every moment left with those I hold dear! I wish I could buy an island where we could all retire with the best medical EVER!

I would give my last breath to rid this world of cancer! I don’t know how give anymore.

I love, miss all my friends and family! I just can’t give anymore at the moment.

Wishing and wanting..tricky! Lonely too. People don’t like the word NO.

I hope we all find our perfect life. I wish I could be there, but it’s tricky. I always try. I know tomorrow could be the last breath. Tricky.

The sad thing is, until I was sick no one wanted to see me. I made the effort time and again but after thirteen years none of my friends or family made an attempt? Mickey, Dad, came to hunt elk once, my wedding once, but until I was sick not a soul.

The day of my brain surgery. I watched an amazing site. Mom flew in from Missouri, Husband showed up, and Brother appeared. No other way to say it ..FUCKING MIRACLE!!

Not brain surgery day but you get my point

We have a continent between us now. I know the momentary bond of my illness is gone and there’s no way to get it back. Clearly I only have the power of one. I can only afford so much. We ask for gifts for Christmas in America. We are TRAINED to do it! Tell Santa what you want! I pray for peace, health and love.

Some of the beautiful people in the world right now wish for a Bible over running water.. Tricky 🥺READ IT AGAIN!!!!

They pray for me..I’m so blessed 1🙏🏻

Hope you’re happy..

If Joe wins, congratulations to you all who voted for him. I hope you get all the “free” things you voted for. I wish the best of luck to all the small business, gun & land owners. When gas prices are soaring, taxes are high, you can’t afford the extras of life, look back & think how good the last 4 years were. You can hate Trump, but his policies helped this country.

The grass isn’t always greener on the other side. Most of the time it’s fertilized by 💩 So make sure you hug an oil worker today because they are worried sick if they will have a job in the next year.

I hope you look at our farmers, factories, & steal industries, because they will get shipped back to China.

Make sure you tell a solider thanks for serving this country because our military will be downsized & not get raises.

I don’t care if you agree with me or not. I wish the best for this country! I stand for the flag & kneel before God until my last breath.

I wish peace not war, but when you tread on my land & want to take my guns, you’ll have a fight. You can only rob the middle class so much before they break.

I will NOT argue, burn cities, loot, rob, or steal because my President didn’t win. I’ll go to work, pay taxes, and do what’s right. 🇺🇸 I won’t walk down the streets of D.C. with a vagina on my head!

Believing in freedom is what everyone wanted when the UNITED STATES was founded. If you want socialism..FUCKIN MOVE. Far away from ME!

OUR DUTY..don’t miss the ending!!!!

I think we need to thoroughly investigate what happened on election night in cities like Milwaukee, Detroit, Philadelphia, and Atlanta. People who say this election was definitely not stolen or rigged in any way have no idea what they are talking about right now. It should also be noted that people who say this election was definitely stolen also have no idea what they are talking about. The real truth is that none of us including Donald Trump know for sure what really happened yet.

The American people need to ultimately find out for themselves why the vote counting was suddenly halted in so many places on election night. Maybe the reasons for all of these sudden tabulation delays in only a handful of states where Donald Trump was leading were totally innocent. Maybe they weren’t so innocent. We need to learn for ourselves why so many officials who were legally allowed to monitor the vote counting were inexplicably turned away. Maybe there is a logical explanation why these vote counters did not want to be watched or monitored. Maybe there isn’t. We all need to find out precisely how many dead people voted in these precincts and how many illegal votes were ultimately counted. In summary, every American ultimately deserves to know the truth about this election… the real truth.

Any thorough investigation will probably take too long to determine the winner of this election. But whenever the actual truth about this ugly process eventually comes to light then every single American will need to make a decision.

It would be my personal recommendation that every single person who ultimately decides this election was rigged should quit being a productive citizen as much as possible for the next four years and simply live off the government. Every person who eventually decides that their voices were intentionally silenced this week should stop spending any extra money on anything beyond the absolute essentials and allow this broken system to collapse. They need to pull every single dime out of the stock market and watch it fall. Yes, this will be economically painful to a whole lot of innocent people but change of this enormous magnitude is always painful. This is the most effective way to peacefully protest against oppression and tyranny. If this election was stolen then we all need to stop participating in a process that is purposefully rigged against us. We are not cattle or sheep. We have our very own hopes and dreams. We get to decide the direction of this country. We should never allow ourselves to be herded in a specific ideological direction by an unaccountable ruling class.

Let me be perfectly clear. If Democrats actually won this election then we all need to respect the final result and work together for a brighter tomorrow. But if it is eventually proven by irrefutable data that Democrats actually stole this election then we all need to take a page out of their very own playbook.

I did not write this, but it’s certainly a better way than taking up arms and declaring war on one another! The truckers are planning a nationwide strike on November 29th. Hope you have your TP ready!

Year 3 cancer FREE, and yet..

3 year pet scan

Here is a list of SOME of the things I mean
Original painful biopsies
The removal of healthy teeth
Radiotherapy treatment
Major surgery
Skin grafts
Multiple visits to hospital
Multiple admissions to hospital
Multiple biopsies
Stitching and staples removal
Multiple infections

Pneumonia 11/2020

Burnt mouth
Multiple Hyperbaric treatment sessions

First PET scan

Phlegm problems
Facial swellings
Dramatic weight loss/gain

128 pounds

Loss of thyroid
Sore and swollen coccyx due to weight loss making it painful to sit on hard surfaces
Having to regularly apply cream to the coccyx
Profound tiredness
Profoundly dry mouth
Dry skin
Sleep disorder
Inability to eat normal foods
Inability to drink normal liquids
Having to eat puree foods
Having to drink thickened liquids
Having feeding tube fitted
Having to feed via a tube
Care for tube and stoma (hole in the stomach)
Inability to talk normally
Continuous speech therapy
Continued heavy, and changing medication
Continued face pain
Painful bone-nibbling procedures

2 months Hyperbaric chamber
Hair loss

Continued coldness (especially to the hands and feet)
Having to sleep on the left hand side only
Multiple MRI scans, x-rays, CT’s etc
Multiple investigations by camera via nose and throat
Recurring bouts of thrush
Difficulty washing face
Continued tingling and itching to right ear
Daily routines of intense oral hygiene procedures
Loss of concentration

It doesn’t end the day you ring the bell, and it reeks havoc on every waking moment the rest of your life.  Personal relationships will suffer and the people around you will suffer.  Whether you know it or not somedays you aren’t yourself.  Screaming at the world seems your only choice, but it hurts to scream.

After brain surgery

If you think it’s all gonna be ok when you say “cancer free” think again!

May never know…

When I see your black soul I pray for the loving light to fill may never know.

When you are down I send energy to help you rise…you may never know.

When others speak ill of you I praise your qualities…you may never know.

When disagreement turns to hate i wish happiness fills your may never know.

When i see your cup empty i try to fill may never know.

The reason you will never understand.. I love you

Only kindness matters..